Saturday, November 29, 2008

sabihin mo na...

gusto kong magpaliwanag sa iyo
ngunit di kinakausap
di ko inasahang diringgin mo
nakatingala sa ulap
alam kong nasaktan na naman kita
ngunit di ko naman sinasadya
hinding-hindi na mauulit sinta
sana’y maniwala ka

sabihin mo na
kung anong gusto mo
kahit ano’y gagawin
para lamang sa yo
sabihin mo na
papaano mo mapapatawad

ilang araw ng hindi pinapansin
ilang araw pang lilipas
nakatanga sa harapan ng salamin
naghihintay ng bawat bukas
lahat naman tayo’y nagkakamali
sinong di magsasama
ngunit papaano babawi sa pagkakamali
un ang mahalaga

sabihin mo nakung anong gusto mo
kahit ano’y gagawinpara lamang sa yo
sabihin mo na
papaano mo mapapatawad

patawarin mo sana sinta
di ko sinasadya

sabihin mo na
kung anong gusto mo
kahit ano’y gagawin
para lamang sa yo
sabihin mo na
papaano mo mapapatawad

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

how to fall in love again...

Falling in love, such a wonderful feeling isn’t it? It paints the most vibrant colours in our lives but we must not forget that it exists together with pain. A friend of mine sent me a text message that states, “its hard to be in love again after a broken heart because you no longer know how much to make the next one special because you made the last one so special thinking he’ll be your last…” After a relationship, one has to realize that the hardest part about it is not the breaking up, but actually the moving on. Telling somebody that the relationship is over is not as difficult as becoming fully aware of the fact that we get to start our life anew, without the things we are previously used to, like eating with the person you love, saying sweet nothings to one another and spending all the good memories you could possibly share with someone who means so much to you.

It’s even harder to date somebody else again, more so to eventually fall in love once more. The past experience has made it difficult to learn how to trust, to tell someone your dreams and fears, and to become vulnerable with what the future has to bring. We become scared with the thought of trying to open up our hearts, which would eventually be scarred with lies and betrayals. I guess the best way in dealing with these situations is by: (1) learning to let go; (2) moving on; and (3) taking the risk.

Letting go may seem as the hardest part of loving one person. If you fall in love with one person and he also falls in love with you but then, love chooses to leave, don’t try to reclaim or assess blame. All the things in life are not meant to last because things change and so people do. You can never hold on to something forever. So just learn to live and let go. Remember that there’s a reason and meaning for everything that you can only know in time. You don’t choose love for love chooses you. All you can do is accept it all for it’s a mystery when it comes to your life.

Learn to move on. Take any pressure or expectations off yourself to get over it quickly. Take care and nurture yourself. Give yourself permission to relax, take it easy, and do whatever makes you feel better. You can also focus on your career or plan pleasurable activities with friends or family ahead of time (especially on weekends) to keep you busy and get your mind off the heartache.

And now, we can take the risk. But sometimes, we are afraid to do it. Maybe it’s because we have loved the wrong person and cried for the wrong reason. We must remember that no matter how things go wrong, we have to be sure of one thing… we must learn from our mistakes to find the right person whose meant for us so we will not be living our lives asking “what if” and telling ourselves “if only.”

In order for one to be able to do this, he has to remember how good it feels to love and to be loved in return. It is then that one is able to live a new life. If one is able to see the beauty of what love brings, then one is more or less ready to take that chance again.


Tuesday, November 18, 2008

crazy in love

hi! im junneth and im so crazy in love... i feel like im in one of those rehab sessions of alcoholics i usually watched from some tv shows... i dont want this to be my first blog posted but in my situation and mood right now... i dont think i have a choice... and i dont think if i could write any better...



ive been into so many relationships... different men, different age gaps, different attitudes, different personalities... but there are two things that remain the same all those years... ME, being so dominant that exceeds their male ego and US, putting an end to our relationship.



its been a tiring 12 years of loving, exerting efforts, spending times, sharing memories, crying, letting go, holding on, problems, reconciliations, and a lot lot more!!! forgive me if i used the word "tiring" - its just that i wonder why does it have to take 12 years (and still counting...) for one person (ME) to find the love of his/her life... i know! i know! peole need to experience things to be able to learn... and you cannot appreciate the beauty of life if one doesnt undergo all those crazy, mad, silly, overwhelming, exciting, inspiring, sad and happy things about love...



if there is one thing that i have learned about being crazy in love... is that LOVE is just an inclusion in one's LIFE... and not everything about it... i guess its enough when sometimes you become crazy and forget about yourself because of loving someone but when that someone forgets about you... dont be crazy... life has a lot of more beautiful things to offer... just wait patiently...